Hey mommy its been 3 years and its still really hard with out you here. I think of you everyday, it so hard to wake up and live my life without you here, it just doesnt seem fair. Dylan deserves to know who you are, and it kills me to know that he will never get to know you. I know your in a better place now and im happy your not suffering anymore. Its just hard because i suffer everyday with out you here. Im working really hard to be the best person and mom i can be, I learned from the best! I only hope i can be as good of a mom as you were! Happy 45th birthday by the way!!! I miss and love you!!!